Ick.

I. Feel. Horrible right now.

I feel like something chewed me up and spit me back out. On top of the usual depression and anxiety issues, I found out that the reason I have been chronically constipated since last year is that I have IBS.

Apparently, a lot of people have it, but - and I don't feel this way about most of my problems - I feel like mine is worse. Everyone keeps saying how they're doing better and how they avoid certain foods. Not that I've tried that, but I can't go without daily Miralax or fiber. I don't think avoiding things will help that much. I was prescribed Amitiza. Who is on that?

It's stupid and childish, but I never said I wasn't either of those things.

Anyway, it is linked with serotonin levels. Like depression. So this was basically going to happen no matter what. If Amitiza doesn't help, I will go mad. I can't possibly deal with this for the rest of my life. I don't want to. Everyone makes it sound like it isn't a big deal, but my stomach hurts and gurgles constantly, I cannot go at all without aid, and I've lost a lot of weight. The last one is great, but apparently it is a bad thing in the medical community.

I just want to eat what I want and not worry about my digestion. It sounds like it's not big deal, but being constipated (occasionally the opposite problem) everyday?!