Welcome to 2021

 Hey friends! 

It's been a year. 

Things are pretty great! 

Firstly, I worked at a medical manufacturing company in Utah. I LOVED it. As much as you can love a "job". I enjoyed almost every coworker I had. I gave them notice when I moved and everything! I hope I can come back to them if I ever move back. For a short time, I also worked in a medical lab here in Louisiana accessioning covid samples for university admissions. That was rad!

Secondly, I've been back in New Orleans. It's so dang pretty here. I love how green everything is, it rains all the time, they have such cool animals and trees here. I've seen so much alligator roadkill. Everyone is waaaaay more relaxed and just less neurotic/high strung than Utahns (no offense to Utahns). It just feels like I'm learning to be a better person here. I'm learning to embrace myself and be less neurotic myself.

Third, I'm moving closer to the city soon. I'm nervous, y'all.  But I really want to go back to school.  That's the goal.  

Fourth, I left and came back to my boyfriend. We have issues, straight up, but only when it comes to arguing. It's very bad. Obviously I'm challenging to be with when I'm upset. He also has mental health challenges and he shuts down. Which further upsets me. It just doesn't work well. And we need counseling for that. Everything else is fine. Even when we're annoying eachother, it's like.. secure. I'm not sure how to explain. We're opposite in so many ways. I'm learning to be more patient and less uptight. It feels like it shouldn't work on paper,  but the commitment is there. Idk why he loves me, but I know he does. And that's big for me. He's also affectionate, which I personally love. 

Fifth, I found out Stephen got married and that our cat is living with his mom. Both surprises to me, but I understand entirely. And he seems sooo happy, and I'm so happy he can be with a comparatively normal girl, but totally his dream chick (looks/vibe wise at least), who will treat him well. Seems like they have a ton in common, and she seems to love him very much. He absolutely deserves that. I'm so relieved he gets a happily ever after! Poor guy has suffered enough. 

Sixth, I'm always horrified re-reading old posts/ journal entries. I came back to Facebook (in defense of Eminem against the murmurs of cancellation in the dark), and it's been kind of rough. I feel like, since I don't have kids, my politics don't lean right, and my posts aren't of happy things, people have blocked me from their feeds or something. And seeing some of my posts here, I probably don't come off the way I intend to. Facebook is like the only way I communicate with anyone and nobody is interacting with me. In short, Facebook is hard. And my brain is telling me nobody cares,  but I know some of you still read this blog (hi! You are gorgeous!). And that everyone is different and most people don't want to hear about sad things and death all the time. Thank you. And my apologies for the angst. 

Seventh, things are pretty dang good right now. There is forward momentum and opportunities. 2020 was pretty good to me, I'm lucky to say. 2021 has been even better so far!