5 Weaknesses

I've been watching GloriaShuriNava's channel (she's great), and watched a video where she lists her 5 weaknesses. So now I want to do it too. Obviously.

#1: Communication. I have a hard time with it. I think it comes from not knowing how I'm coming off, because, as convinced as some are to the contrary, I want people to feel comfortable around me. I want them to trust me completely, to feel happy, to feel loved, and to feel safe. As weird as that sounds. So I try to be as frank as possible at all times. This backfires sometimes (a lot of times) because apparently people don't want to know every single thing about my life, body, or opinions.

#2: Insecurity. This ties well with #1. Because I don't communicate perfectly, my mental illness, and my flaws, I get really insecure. Normally, I am anxious anyway but, around people, it gets worse. It feels like they're trying to play tricks on me. That sounds schizo, but it's true. I feel like I have to be on constant alert. Obviously it's not as bad around people I love and know I can trust, but yeah.

#3: Slow. I'm very slow. Not physically, but mentally. At least when it comes to math and some aspects of science, you may as well be speaking gibberish. I get science, I excelled in English, I excelled in health, and I excelled in music. But I've always, always, been slow at math. Even in the lowest math class in grade school, I was the slowest student. They'd take me out to test me and see if I should be put in what I can only guess is a special needs class. Really.

#4: Fragile heart. As much as it does or doesn't show, my heart is fragile. I get sad when I see people treating others badly, when justice isn't served, and when people are truly suffering. I cry when I watch people putting down their cats on Youtube! I get really attached to my own animals.

#5: Wrath/Impatience. Some of the things that make me sad, also make me angry. Extremely angry. I can't stand when people judge other people for things they can't possibly understand. I hate it when something that shouldn't be accepted (like abuse or bullying) is acceptable.

Anyway, those are just 5 of my many flaws.