Transracial Adoption

Just to get a little business out of the way, I haven't posted in forever. I know. I've been getting mental help and growing and working on things and trying to get better. Very busy. And, while blogging helps (and vlogging. I sometimes make 3 hour long videos!), I always look back and regret it. It's no different now. I've been a wreck. However, I'm getting slowly better. Getting some helpful tools in therapy, and we're currently trying to figure out exactly what's wrong before we continue. I'm also going to try antipsychotics, I think. Both my therapist and psychiatrist recommend it.

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Anyway, as you may or may not know, I have a blood clotting disorder. I am 7x more likely than a normal person to "throw a clot" in my legs and lungs. It also increases the risk of miscarriage. That is a problem when you want to get pregnant. Not to mention being pregnant. I'm at an increased risk to develop severe pre-eclampsia (according to some studies. I recently found one with contrary results). For this, the best thing to do is give yourself two shots a day of heparin (an anti-coagulant). 

I don't look forward to that. In fact, I'm REALLY not excited. I'm not even sure I could do it. Especially because I'll be off my mental medication. And I don't especially love needles. Then my PKD exacerbates things. I am even MORE likely to experience pre-eclampsia. With PKD, the high blood pressure is likely to continue on after giving birth. And, after I have one child, the high blood pressure would put me at an even more increased risk for pre-eclampsia and other complications with my second. It's more dangerous that way. 

In short, it's kind of a deadly risk to get pregnant.

Lucky for me, I grew up wanting to adopt. And not just any child (though my mind has changed), but black babies. I'm not racist, and I'm not into the celebrity trend, I just like them. They're cute! And it's just a bonus if I adopt ones from Africa because I can save them from a 3rd world life. 

Anyway, I'm now open to any possibility. Asian, Indian, native american, black, and even white. Though, for some reason, I have a drive to adopt children from races that aren't white like me. I kind of want a transracial family. If I'm going to have one, anyway. 

Stephen is not stoked about the idea of adopting, but maybe if I have a health scare with our first (which I fully expect), he'll come around.