As I become even more secluded from society, I think I'm beginning to realize that I'm not happy with the American dream "norm". Most people, it seems, grow up, go to college, work, have/raise kids, and die. Those kids grow up, go to college, work, have/raise kids, and die. And on and on it goes.
It's not a bad life, but sometimes I feel like that's not for me. I've come up with some crazy ideas that might just work for me someday.
Nudist colony: I love being naked! I would like to not have to put clothes on. I just feel sorry for the people who'll have to see me without my clothes on. And I wouldn't want to see most other naked people, but it you can't say it wouldn't be a liberating experience!
Canada: When I didn't realize I had a chronic physical illness, I was upset that this country doesn't have a lot of medical resources for the mentally ill. I have suffered from it since I was about 14 years old. I occasionally thought of moving to Canada and gaining dual residency or something similar. Now that I know I'm ill and this country will continue to fight for whatever nonsense we've had, I like socialized medicine more and more. I'd like to not have to pay more just because of the genes I was born with. *Rant: And goodness, what if I was single? How could I afford my medical bills later when it gets worse and I can't work? That doesn't even make any sense!!! Insurance is only affordable for the people who don't need it. This isn't working.
Back to the Homeland: I've probably gone on and on about my Scottish heritage at one point, but I identify more with my German ancestry from my dad's side. I'm 85% sure I'm at least a quarter German. Either one of these countries could do. I hear people work less in those countries and there is more recycling and they're beautiful anyway.
Anyway, I just think there is more to life than the endless cycle of nonsense. Maybe there is a place where I don't have to feel as out of place.
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