We're probably annoying.

I was reading my husband's email (a bad habit formed because of a bad experience) recently. There is usually nothing new in there and, if I'm okay with the title and who it's from, I don't read it anyway. This occasion was no exception to the routine.

However, I was bored and I noticed he still had our chats saved, so I took a looksie. After reading only a few conversations, it dawned on me that we're probably one of those really annoying couples. Every other sentence was "I love you SOOO much!" or "I miss you SOOO much!" or some other variation. There were a few "I'm sorry"s because Stephen apologizes needlessly for small mishaps and mine are because I get stern at him sometimes for no reasonable reason.

I thought of how nearly all of my profile pictures on Facebook were of us. It's been that way since...our second month of dating? I was just dead in love with Stephen, and I still am. I still miss him intensely, even when he's only gone for an hour or so. I can't stay mad at him for long - and I'm a pro at that. There isn't much I'd like to "fix" or change about him. I want to have physical contact all the time. I still like to take G-rated showers together when it's possible. I'm just still very much in love.

And I'm thinking that could be really annoying. We've been together for almost 3 years now. I was told I'd eventually "get over" that phase. I see it happening with my friends. Not to assume they're not in love or even just as much in love, they're just not annoying about it. They have their own personalities, their own space, and they have their own Facebook pictures of themselves or friends and family. They can handle being by themselves for 5 seconds. They're adults.

Even though I realize my bond to Stephen may be unhealthily attached or otherwise clingy, I don't want it to change. I love knowing I can count on him for anything. I hope I can give him the supreme joy that he gives so freely to me. I love Stephen to the most obnoxious level ever!