Math :(

Hello.

It's been good. I've been doing well in almost all of my classes! It's a good thing I have to stay at school until Stephen is done with work - it forces me to do homework to avoid boredom. A tip for you all!

Anyway, today I'm going to take a test to see if I have dyscalculia. Or maybe it's a test to see if I need to take the test? I'm not sure, but I'm just hoping I do. Not that I want to be labeled with a disability, but I definitely could use the assurance that I won't have to struggle through school.

I've always been bad at math. In elementary school, I was in the lowest math class. And I was the slow kid in that class. I remember them taking me out of class to test me. I'm sure it was to place me in a special needs class or something, now that I look back on it. I struggled through middle school. I had to take summer courses to make up my failed math classes. I had to take one less elective course during school to take math classes. Lastly, in high school, I somehow managed to barely pass algebra, I failed geometry, Algebra 2, and they made up a class for me to take so I could graduate.

So...I'm just hoping beyond hope that they'll cut me a break.

I'm in Math 0950, and I'm barely getting through it. I worry I'll fail and/or never be able to graduate. I haven't tried the math lab yet, or a tutor, so there is some room if I don't have dyscalculia. It's just that people telling me how to do it, doesn't help me do it. Or it does, and I forget entirely.

For instance, in my class now, I managed to ACE chapter 4 after Stephen told me how to do it. Then, two months later after I realized I needed to take an exam on that chapter, I failed. Miserably. I didn't remember any of it.

I don't know. I just really don't want to struggle through this. It's hard enough.