Loner.

I have another blog dedicated to all the intricacies that go into making me the loner-est loner I know. But I know I've shared this on there before, and I wanted to complain about it some more: the fact that I'm so incredibly unrelatable. And apparently that's not even a word.

This need to lament came from the reminding view on facebook that all my cousins are friends with all of my siblings. My brother doesn't use facebook (how does he get on with life?), so he's not technically friends with anyone either, but my sisters are all friends with all of my cousins.

I am not friends with most of my extended family. I do love them. I love being around them, but I can easily see why they probably don't love being around me. First of all, we're so different. That whole side of the family is just vibrant, outspoken, and accomplished. I'm like...the opposite of all of those things. Second, I have almost nothing in common with them. I rarely have anything in common with anyone, it seems. And that makes it hard to make friends when most people build relationships off of commonalities. Third, I still don't know how to interact with those outside my innermost circle. I literally shut down around some people for no reason at all.

So yeah, I get it. And I'm not certain I want this to change, but it is sad to see.