However, after reading my blessing, I've just been happier. Much happier. I really enjoy knowing that I have someone looking out for me, who loves me unconditionally, and who is constantly cheering me on. Sometimes I feel so alone. Not lonely, but just like my ideas and personality just don't fit in anywhere. My physical circumstances and mental challenges just exacerbate the problem, and I just feel out of place all the time.
Yet, I have a purpose to someone. And I know that others also have a purpose to this someone. That really helps me to view people in a different, better light. It's easier to forgive others because I understand that I can never truly understand where they've been or what God has in store for the rest of their lives. I can be more patient with them and with myself.
The ideas or behavior you dislike about someone, they don't really matter. What people dislike about you doesn't matter, because you matter to someone greater. They matter to someone greater. We have our flaws - some flaws which can be very hurtful - because we're human. It wasn't inherent in ourselves, it's part of being a human. We have to learn to push our true selves through the downfalls of our humanity and some just have a more difficult time with it than others. My true self isn't depressed, wrathful, anxious, or vindictive. Those are just my human flaws.
Anyway, my point is that I have gained this strange sense of love for others and for myself. You may even call it hope. Real hope. Or an eternal perspective. It's strange, but I love it.
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