My doses have been changed in the following ways:
- 200mg 3x daily Gabapentin - 300mg 3x daily Gabapentin
- 75mg (starter dose) Bupropion - 150mg (starter dose) Bupropion XL
This means I'll be taking 300mg more Gabapentin each day. I'm slightly worried because it's made my eyesight worse. Noticeably worse. It was scary at first, but worth the anxiety relief. That was when I was starting at 100mg 3x daily. I worry my eyesight will get even worse. I just hope it's not irreversible. Then I'm worried I'll be too sedated. It's really affected my memory. It's still worth the relief, but I'm worried I won't be able to do school at all. It's hard to recall basic words, let alone remember a paragraph or question I just read. Also, I was beginning to experience transient fatigue. On top of my regular fatigue.
Now, I remember being so easily fatigued before. Probably due to depression or the constant fight-or-flight mode being on. But I think it's gotten worse? I was getting tired and my back hurt yesterday just from washing the dishes. Seriously. It was really embarrassing.
Then the bupropion. That's twice what I usually take in an extended-release dose. I had to start low because I'd been on it before and it caused heart palpitations. My psychiatrist knew what my GP didn't: that happens in people with anxiety if you start them too high. So, I started taking the bupropion. My appetite is not as big as it used to be. I actually eat as much as a normal person now and I don't crave fast food. I got headaches pretty frequently, but it was worth the seemingly-improved mood. For the first few weeks, if I remember right, I didn't notice anything. Then, for a week or so, I'd gotten a lot better. I think so, at least. I was not miserable all the time and the bottom-line of my depression came up. I can't get as sad anymore, which I thought was good.
So...I'm just hoping this helps a lot more. I want to be more energetic, happy, and motivated. I want to be able to make plans with friends without worrying about it. I want to hold a steady job and graduate college finally.
That would be great.
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