Great week!

My terrible week...and a half? It's gone. This week is going to be much better. It's already much better.

My sleep schedule is a hot mess right now, which is usually a bad thing, but last night (this morning?) I got to reading my favorite book in the scriptures: Moroni. Nephi gets all the press, but I actually think he's a little full of himself and somewhat obnoxious (shhh, don't tell!). Moroni and Mormon had the right idea. They're geniuses, basically.

Either way, chapter 7 & 10 speak to my soul. Frankly, they're what have kept me in the church when other people insist on trying to mess everything up. To say I have a testimony of those chapters is a light way of putting it.

Anyway, it had been raining that day, which was awesome! Work went by pretty quickly, I got to be on the make-line, and I was in a good mood the whole time. I'm in a good mood now. I'll probably be in a good mood tomorrow. I'm still not ecstatic about my weight gain, but I should learn to let that noise go. My body is not mine.

Yes, I realized that my body is not mine. I have no control over it. Maybe I can manage it through exercise or something, but it's gonna lose weight when it wants, it's gonna gain weight when it wants, my kidneys will grow as big as they want, and I'm gonna look pregnant and be uncomfortable if it's what my body wants. I can't afford to care about my shape, and I should enjoy what I have while I have it, because it's just gonna get worse.

Another thing I realized? Life is not one-size-fits-all. You know how I was comparing myself to everyone else the other day? Why would I (or anyone else) do that? I'm not everyone else! So I'm not good at the whole "school" thing, but I'd rather have awesome life experiences (advocation in India, mass disaster response, saving a life, etc.) than a bachelor's degree and a boring desk job. My goal is not money, fame, or wealth, it's purpose, joy, and service.

In conclusion, talking to yourself is helpful sometimes. Praying and making time for things that count is also helpful. Don't be too busy living life that you forget to love it. Do what makes you happy! The end.