Pretty sure I'm suicidal.

And not exactly in the emo way, but in a way that I'm always thinking of ways to off myself. And sometimes not just thinking, I'm like...urged.

Getting gas, I can't hold the keys in my hand because I'm tempted to start the engine. I often think of moving a bit to the right or left to collide with other cars on the freeway. When I'm about to plug in my laptop, I want to put the connector in my mouth. I think of getting shot when I sit by a window front in a restaurant. I sometimes think of taking ibuprofen (an NSAID) instead of acetaminophen so my kidneys will fail faster.

Those are just the ones I can think of right now. It's really weird, but I think everyone has these thoughts. Right?