Well well..

So I just got done with a huge freaking text battle with my mother-in-law.

Turns out, I really just needed an explanation. As much as I wouldn't have believed it 10 minutes ago, I've actually forgiven her. Crazy. It really is astounding to me. And I would've made a huge mistake if I didn't go. She's just not nearly as evil as I thought she was. This whole time I figured she didn't care about this or that and, when actually talking to her (hindsight says that would've been preferable), I find she actually does care about a lot of things. She just doesn't vocalize her feelings. Something I'm pro at.

We're very different when it comes to a few big things, but the same when it comes to a lot of smaller things. I can live with that. Now I'm sorry and I have to eat crow (also something I'm pro at - maybe because of afformentioned pro at thing).

And I have to get my brother-in-law to talk to me. Share the good news? I still don't think it's that big of a deal that we go, but if it makes him happy, then I'm happy. A little sad/hurt about how my wedding went, but it's okay. Apparently everyone was mad at us. She made it so I could only tell a majority of people were mad at us. Pretty good, considering the hypervigilance, the fact that I don't trust anyone, and the fact that I am extremely wary of peoples' intentions. She's talented, that was never disputed.

I've been stupid. No one supported my decision to marry Stephen except Levi and our handful of friends. I should've returned the favor, even though I don't like his fiance. Though, maybe that can change too. I have to be more forgiving and give people a chance. Tommorrow will be eventful, that's for sure.