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It was too good to be true.

While it did bring my depression (reportedly severe) to a level field on day 1, which is amazing, it just stayed there. I couldn't "be happy" and laugh. It was zombifying. Which would've been okay since it's better than feeling horrendous all the time. But it didn't help with motivation and it only helped the fatigue slightly.

It's better than nothing though, and I was willing to give it an honest go. At least (TMI alert) until I realized what it did to my female organs. My libido is crazy high, and I'm alright in the arousal area, but "getting the rains down in Africa" and "finishing the race" have always been troublesome for me. Like, insane difficult. It's a very hurtful, depressing, and sensitive subject for me. Though paxil made it rain big time, the race could only be finished after at least twice as long as it usually takes with twice as much work and with much less reward than usual. On the first day!

I'd read some reviews and studies saying it really affected that area of someone's life, but I didn't believe them and I figured it could have the opposite effect for me since I was getting more serotonin. Didn't happen that way. And, while the relief paxil gives is amazing, I just can't let that area of my life get worse. I can't. Also I enjoy laughing and having a personality, as crappy as it may be.

However, I'd highly recommend this to people who are not sexually active and can handle being a little...tranquil.